I just gave my first guest lecture at cornell university and yes if
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I just gave my first guest lecture at Cornell University And yes if you re a fan of The Office this is Andy Bernard s alma mater which somehow makes it even more iconic This post is going to be a bit of a diary-style motivational reflection so if that s not your thing at least there s a hot picture of me The lecture went amazing The students asked such thoughtful and interesting questions But more than anything what I want to talk about is this When I first started my OnlyFans and began being more active on social media I really struggled with how I presented myself in public I was always quite open in academic public spaces about what I do I manage a bro thel I go to swingers events I m very open about my sex life But at the same time I was raised to embody this serious academic persona You know the drill to be taken seriously you have to act serious You need the right publications you must respect the hierarchy you must behave a certain way to be considered a good scholar And heaven forbid you have an OnlyFans and dare to be open about it For a while I kept it as a secret Not because I was ashamed of what I do but because I feared that people in academia might think less of me Looking back I realize how stupid that was I think deep down I always knew it but I needed time to truly process it I had placed restrictions on myself before anyone else even had the chance to judge me Eventually I said Fuck it I m a good scholar maybe not the best but I bring something unique to the table I m not going to hold myself back just because someone might view me through a narrow stereotypical lens What others think of me says more about them than it does about who I really am So when I gave that lecture I also talked openly about being a content creator And you know what It felt liberating And guess what else No one told me I don t belong in academia because of it So here s the takeaway We all create imaginary restrictions for ourselves We worry What will they think of me if I start say do XYZ And in doing so we hold ourselves back not because of real obstacles but because of fear But when we own our choices and stand confidently behind them we realize We are allowed to be complex We are allowed to be many things at once And the world doesn t end when we embrace all parts of who we are In fact it might just start to open up