Dear Diary 12 12 24 It s 6am and I had a very naughty smoky dream which got my brain going I though I would start to share my daily thoughts with you I often find myself lost in thought reaching for a cig It s a constant extension of myself always there to soothe me to spark my creativity or simply to pass the time I ve even noticed myself daydreaming about smoking envisioning endless cig packets and lighter flicks I ve always been a It s more than just a hab t it s a part of my identity The ritual of lighting up the inhale the exhale it s a comfort a distraction a moment of peace There s a strange thrill in seeing how many cigs I can chain smoke It s a test of endurance a lim ts The buzz the rush I know it s not healthy I ve seen the stats But for now I m content to indulge in this naughty pleasure I m so grateful for being able to share my k nks with those who appreciate it