It s 3 a m i m sitting on the cold steps of my apartment building
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4 days ago
valeriyaa
It s 3 a m I m sitting on the cold steps of my apartment building because I can t sleep I wanted to go outside for a bit get some air but it was too cold so I came back in I ve been struggling with insomnia again for the past two weeks It s slowly driving me insane I m on edge and I don t even fully understand why Maybe it s because of the upcoming trip to Belarus Yes I ve decided to go because of my grandmother It s a risk but I m going anyway hoping everything will turn out okay I haven t seen my mom or grandmother in three years And something deep inside tells me it s time I need to go Last week I went to an orthodontist for a consultation I need to get braces and treat my jaw the joint on the left side is deteriorating They told me the treatment would cost around 5 000 to 6 000 I guess that s another reason for the stress Now I m just sitting here shivering my body aching and I feel like I could throw up I feel awful For the past three days I ve been dealing with a bladder infection and my fever went as high as 39 C 102 F So lately I ve just been living in survival mode Anxiety is a terrible thing It doesn t show mercy It eats you alive piece by piece That s where I m at today How about you