I m alive i ve just been having so much fun with my new deck lol yes i part 1

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I m alive I ve just been having so much fun with my new deck lol yes I am on the floor These days I like to keep my life private I don t really like the pressure of posting on social media because I wanna savor real life XD I feel I m pressured to be someone else I m not when I fixate on it too much I ve never been open about this because I m too shy and I don t really wanna exploit the one pure thing in my life which is music As cheesy as it sounds it really has saved me multiple times It also keeps me sane and hopeful I love music I m not aiming to be a professional or famous musician I just love it I love sounds they speak to me in ways no one else can Not even myself I ve always wanted a midi and deck but I set it aside for more important things bills rent but I love music so much I honestly don t mind if I m starving or homeless as long as I can make it and be surrounded by it I was not confident enough in myself either and everyone on here has given me so much motivation Thank you for supporting me and helping me get here I look back and realize how meek I was I m still socially anxious and awkward but I m def more of a yapper and dancer now I hope this reminds you to try I find Homer Simpson so funny because I m def him when I lived in fear and was too afraid to try things but just do it Sure most of the time it won t work out as planned but that one time it does makes it so worth it It s easier said than done but believe in yourself more It s a way to be kinder to yourself too Hope you re ok and taking care of yourself Have a good weekend xx -Z