I think there are several reasons but the main reason is that I am leaving Thailand in less than a month and I wanted to have so much to do here before I left of course I can do it all when I come back here again but I wanted to do it this month and I feel like my efforts are not commensurate with the results and there are so many places I wanted to visit and I have a guilty conscience on days when I m on vacation I m trying to organize my thoughts I don t want the rest of my time to be sad