Poni ej hey my loves you deserve to know something i ve been keeping
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faeriemimi
poni ej Hey my loves You deserve to know something I ve been keeping to myself for a while now something that s been the reason behind my exhaustion and distance lately I couldn t bring myself to talk about it before even hearing questions from people close to me would make me break down in tears or send me into panic attacks Not just because it was painful but because I honestly had no idea what was happening or what more I could even do Every day was full of uncertainty I was constantly waiting for new test results never knowing what I d hear next One moment is burned into my memory when the doctor was gently trying to explain everything to me and I felt like I just shut down completely Time stopped That s when I was diagnosed an early stage of squamous cell carcinoma A malignant form of cancer Something I suddenly had to fight Why am I sharing this now Because after many appointments tests and procedures I know I ve done everything I possibly could The cancerous changes have been removed and now I m waiting for the biopsy results In July I ll have another detailed exam to check how things are healing and to make sure it isn t coming back I ll need to continue preventive treatment until December If everything goes well this might be the end of the fight Just getting to this point already feels like a huge victory And honestly It was only possible because I paid for everything out of my own pocket I was too scared to trust my life to the public healthcare system But it came at a heavy price I ve lost all my savings spent every cent I had and gone into four-figure debt with people close to me If it weren t for one special person who s been taking care of me I wouldn t even have money for food right now So I m asking truly with all my heart for your support To help me pay off these debts and finish my treatment I promise I ll do my absolute best to create the most beautiful content for you in return I already have a new photo set almost ready and for the first time you ll get to see me in a implied nude I swear every bit of support means the world to me And I won t stop fighting Ever Hej moi kochani Zas ugujecie na to by w ko cu dowiedzie si czego co przez d ugi czas trzyma am tylko dla siebie Czego co by o powodem mojego zm czenia i wycofania Nie by am gotowa si tym dzieli - ka da rozmowa ka de pytanie nawet od najbli szych wywo ywa y u mnie zy i napady paniki Nie tylko dlatego e temat by trudny ale te dlatego e sama nie wiedzia am co si w a ciwie dzieje Ka dy dzie by pe en niepewno ci- czeka am w niesko czono na kolejne wyniki bada a ka dy z nich m g zmieni wszystko Najbardziej pami tam ten jeden moment kiedy lekarz bardzo spokojnie pr bowa mi wszystko wyja ni a ja po prostu si wy czy am Czas si dla mnie zatrzyma W a nie wtedy us ysza am diagnoz - wczesne stadium raka kolczystokom rkowego Nowotw r z o liwy Co z czym przysz o mi walczy Dlaczego dopiero teraz o tym m wi Bo po niezliczonych wizytach badaniach i zabiegach wiem ju e zrobi am wszystko co by o w mojej mocy Zmiany zosta y usuni te teraz czekam na wyniki biopsji W lipcu czeka mnie kolejne dok adne badanie- lekarze sprawdz jak si goj i czy choroba nie wraca Do grudnia b d jeszcze kontynuowa leczenie zapobiegawcze I je li wszystko p jdzie dobrze to b dzie koniec tej historii Sam fakt e dotar am do tego momentu traktuj jak ogromny sukces I szczerze By mo liwy tylko dlatego e op aci am wszystko sama Nie zaufa am publicznej opiece zdrowotnej- ba am si Ale mia o to swoj cen Straci am wszystkie oszcz dno ci zad u y am si u bliskich i dzisiaj gdyby nie jedna wyj tkowa osoba kt ra si mn opiekuje nie mia abym nawet za co kupi jedzenia Dlatego dzi bardzo bardzo prosz Was o wsparcie Pom cie mi sp aci d ugi i doko czy leczenie W zamian- zrobi wszystko co w mojej mocy by tworzy dla Was jeszcze pi kniejszy jeszcze bardziej dopracowany kontent Ju prawie mam gotow now sesj zdj ciow b dzie wyj tkowa Po raz pierwszy zobaczycie mnie w subtelnej zakrytej nago ci Obiecuj e ka da forma wsparcia jest dla mnie ogromn pomoc I przysi gam- nie przestan walczy