Gotta share some updates on my life guys if you follow me for a longer part 5
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lastrawberry
Gotta share some updates on my life guys If you follow me for a longer time you know that the last 6 months were hard ones for me I went through hell because of bad accident that happened to my family member I barely remember these days It was a dark rabbit hole I was barely taking care of myself I spent sleepless nights on my balcony crying and smoking All I was doing is taking care of my mom organising and dealing with all of the medical stuff and appointments and other health related issues Ah and creating content and doing my online work like crazy spending hours on my phone and barely having a time for myself And all of the chores bills homework damn I have no idea of how I survived this whole thing It affected my health so badly that one morning I woke up and realised that things are going absolutely wrong I was totally messed up mentally and physically I couldn t remember the last time I was simply going for a walk or seeing my friend Or just playing video game Or doing my hobbies Or enjoying small things that used to make me happy such as burning candles or buying fresh flowers or having my iced latte at my favourite cozy coffeehouse Recently the last red flag was that I ve tried to stand up from my sofa and almost fell down because I suddenly lost all of the sensitivity in my legs And I just want to make it sure that I m ok now I m still dealing with all of the consequences every single day I face it I don t want to hide myself anymore from reality Since my mom s recovery and the surgery she had she s doing better Theses still another surgery on the way but I pray that she gets through this and will be even better I m already grateful for what I have today I do appreciate every single day when I see her doing better than 6 months ago That all that really matters to me And now I finally woke up and realised that I ve been drained stressed and tired for more than 6 months I decided to finally treat myself and love myself I make tiny steps but that means a lot to me I recently spent some time with my bestie on the beach just talking did a spa and massage day on the weekend did my hair and had the most amazing cappuccino at my favourite place I finally starting breathing again and living my life Yesterday I made another but EXTRA HUGE STEP I m so proud of myself because it was my goal my dream it was on my to do list for 3 years I m almost crying but this time from happiness Maybe I ll add more details soon but I m so freaking excited and happy about upcoming plans Thank you guys so much for your support understanding and patience I wouldn t make it without you I can t work a regular job I guess you know why so being content creator actually saved me and helped with my mom s recovery process and medical bills which is the most important part And now it s time to treat myself and follow my heart