If anyone knows me they know how emotionally regulated i tend to be
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sexyspiderlady
if anyone knows me they know how emotionally regulated i tend to be but for the past little while there s been a lot of life changes that my mind is still catching up to i rarely ever cry off camera so crying on camera is still pretty new to me after this video was filmed i took time to reflect on everything that made me so upset and found i was able to do that a lot easier now that i was in a calmer state as soon as i started filming i felt as if i entered a new reality distracting my mind from anything negative going on inside it i was way too focused on the pleasurable feeling inside me instead using masturbation as a coping mechanism CAN be healthy depending on the intention behind it i wasn t doing this to ignore the pain i felt but to calm myself down in order to understand my pain better afterwards because of this i believe the action of what im doing to be helpful as opposed to harmful while it helps pull me out of a spiralling state i also know at the same time im getting even more work done and furthering changing the stigmas around porn by being more vulnerable personable in my content crying is healthy and it s very real so it s only fair if you get to see a smile on my face you also see when it breaks a little too