Sometimes i stress about content being creative keeping the fans
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10 months ago
vinnymarchegiano
Sometimes I stress about content being creative keeping the fans entertained and trying to satisfy my own sanity that I fought the good fight inspiring new ideas as a solo creator Managing my Chaturbate live stream twice a day which is my sole income at the moment and keeping up with updates while trying to not be repetitive is a bit grueling Not to mention my exhausting 3hr gym routines cardio and being a father taxi driver for my two sons while dealing with their egomanical mother However don t get me wrong I LOVE MY JOB Since beginning this new venture plugging myself back into the industry it has restored my life and rewinded time for me metaphorically speaking There have been a lot of lows but I never gave up on myself and I just hoped as long as I never did that I just might find some relief and reward for my efforts Some other things you might like to know I am borderline bipolar disorder and in my manic states I can be obsessive complisive Washing my hands cleaning over and over again and making the simplest tasks seem like an eternity to complete It is a fucking nitemare at times but I deal with it to understand this what I have done to myself through my experiences drug abuse and trauma I am not one to cry two tears in a bucket I feel very lucky and fortunate to be here but this might give you some insight to the person I am or have become and why I choose to do porn exclusively I literally do not belong in society I had a military buddy once tell me You are a real crazy person You should be in a padded room with a straight jacket and feeding tube He was joking of course but no seriously lol I will be joining with you all this evening 7pm CST for willing and if you miss me tonite I will have another stream Thursday evening 7pm I d like to make a thing of it and mix things up Stay my friends