Do we have time to mess around before dinner i ve had many asking me lately how I choose somebody to be involved with play dates I call them as I am spoken for obv and it s interesting really I have tried all the ways Dating apps at the gym things like that This last time I really felt that I needed to find more of a connection because those dates were not exactly what I wanted for the outcome I spent probably six months chatting to somebody FaceTime calls and just learning about that person to try and build a connection to see if the intimacy would be heightened because of it Even when I said things that I needed and wanted I specifically did not want porn fucking I still ended up getting just that And this person was attractive they took care of their body and genuinely are a good person but for some reason when it comes to sex the only thing most of these guys know how to do is just the wham Bam I m not gonna get anything out of that and if you can t make me orgasm then there s no point in me playing the game with you if that makes any sense Because of that I have not been actively searching hence the lack of super new boy Grl videos I need something to happen organically There has to be an initial spark or some attraction You can t create that if it s not there initially I don t care what anybody says that s just not real So I am waiting for that spark I don t think that I am difficult to please I just want them to take their time maybe I want them to treat me like they re in love with me in bed without being in love with me Is that possible To play pretend Because even though the last guy had been a bull on other occasions for a couple he absolutely got a little bit too connected and I could feel that so I pulled away I mean what do you think Am I asking too much