VIDEO FINISHED Holy Shit did this take me longer than it should have With this I was trying to capture anxiety When I get panic attacks I get pulled so far into my head it feels like a black hole I get extreme tunnel vision and sparkles Details become all I see It s strange to explain how I can t take in the big picture but it s like my brain only registers one thing at a time in hyper focus explosion mode until eventually I close my eyes When my eyes are shut I typically use the palms of my hands or knees to put pressure on my eye sockets Why no idea but the pressure is calming It s like I need to shut out the visual stimulation Once that s gone my focus changes to ear ringing and almost under water sound I know I need to focus on my heart beat and breath to gain control again Pressure on my eyes the thump of my heart or someone else s and slowing my breathing down are all on full blast I layered those sounds within the video I also used a lot of inward movements to try and convey the inward mind fuck pull Yes I am not wearing clothing which is why it may read as sexy I think if I were to try and convey sexy I would focus on curves and arches This may still have a sensual feel but when stressed I do use that as a release so it makes sense that it did come out in this video - I haven t figured out how to get a little thumbnail preview image so for now all my professional ish videos are black This took me so long because I don t understand the software yet I would do something and it would take 3 hours to then go and put the clip back merging it to find out after doing xyz you cant add a certain transition and having to redo everything Worth the effort but the more i understand the software the faster I should get and the more I can predict future issues New techniques I learned for this video color grading masking nesting speed ramping some dj skills the main soundtrack had parts I didn t like so i figured out how to cut certain things out and blend it back together I still see some errors or things I could have improved on but for now im happy with the result and each video I do my skills will improve