couchqueenie1 - Face-to-face with my gains in this raw unfiltered monologue i stand in part 1
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Face-to-Face with My Gains In this raw unfiltered monologue I stand in front of my bedroom mirror- confronting every inch of my overgrown body For so long I ve tried to hide it tried to deny it and cover it But now that I m standing here getting dressed to go out somewhere fancy I can t run away from the truth And the truth is I can t believe what I ve done to myself Once I was fit proud and in control Now all I see is softness- each part of me is heavier rounder and more visible than I ever imagined As I struggle to fit into outfits that no longer flatter my figure I m made to reckon with the damage that my habits have done And I m reminded that every decision and indulgence has shaped me into this Softness spilling over unrestrained and unavoidable In the mirror s unflinching gaze I examine each part of my body feature by feature feeling the reality sinking in I can t hide my shape I can t stop the softness from spilling over I can t conceal my big belly my wobbly arms and dimpled thighs and how my whole body jiggles at the slightest movement There s no filter here no denial It s just me facing the music and letting the regret and helplessness sink in Every indulgence every decision led me to this If you ve ever wondered what it s like for me to face the changes the consequences of what I ve done this is your chance to see It s something I m still wrestling with- this big body that I know I should have accepted and made peace with by now Watch me bare it all inside and out