I m good at pushing people away I don t like the feeling of love I don t know how to anymore I m self destructive I lived through someone like you before I loved harder and harder only to fall harder I fell while jumping on ice today I m not sure why but I felt the need to brush off the people who helped me get back up My ankle is swollen but I just said I m fine The girls were so caring and genuinely kind to me they carried me to the bench and I felt vulnerable that they genuinely cared Why does thinking about this make me cry in my Uber I don t understand